Me

I spent most of today at the beach just thinking/bumming. I haven't done this in a long time. Usually, I'd just be too out of focused during the day thinking of so many things, but today I knew I had to take time out and just chillax - reexamine myself and everything around me.

Two months from now, I would be back in SoCal for 2 years- how fast. A lot of things have changed - my outlook in life especially. When I was in the Flipland, everything seemed to be okay but a thing or two would be missing. Yeah, it was a lot of fun, but I left because I needed a breather from all of it and to find myself. After almost two years of finding myself, I think I have. I have also realized who my true friends and those who I can rely on. Life in the Philippines seemed to be kind of shallow for a time when people around me sometimes just thought of the fun part of life. They never just seemed to think about the real world.

I've stuck to my close circle of friends. We talk on a regular basis which is great. The here and there friends, yeah we chat or email once in a while which is okay. One thing I have realized about friendship over the years is that you have to endure so much crazy shit together to appreciate one another. And the crazy shit isn't something you all dread on doing, but just taking it as a whole lot of fun or just laugh about it after. I have met people who came and left my life which I really don't give a flying fuck about them. Those people are just really shallow and I feel bad for them. It's like those people aren't really happy, but they pretend to be. Oh, one thing I hate also is two faced people. I can name a few, but not here =P

Aside from knowing who my true friends are, I have realized that I am contented with my life especially right now. If you were to ask me if there was anything else missing in my life, there wouldn't be. I have a great job which I really enjoy, I work with great people, my neighbors are cool, my friends are great, I have I think the best boyfriend (all girls think their bf's are the best), and most important of all the love and closeness in my family. I can die right now and not regret or ask for anything else. When you are truly happy, it seems like you're on a happy drug all the time which I am 24/7 for the past 10 months thanks to everyone especially Corie. I love you so much. =)